Saturday, 30 August 2014

Six-am Confessions

Do you know what kills you?—Confessions done at 6:00 am! When you cognize that it will never be the same, When you're mindful of the fact that you're turning over everything you hold either it be yourself, your so called dignity or that seat you entertain in a person's life and yet you are expiring to break up eventually.
You dare to say it all, you try your level best making all those confessions you have been carrying on for so long and they make you feel that you’ve failed to explain them the way this all has been eating you up. It kills you!

You're not killed by knives or the bullet shots, you're shot down by feelings, you're being killed by the words that comes out after the sheer silence. You're killed by pouring it all out and left with nothing to say. It kills you when the one who used to protect you walks away knowing that you're bare handed unable to protect yourself. You're killed by replacements. You are killed when you let the charm evaporate. You are killed when you are helpless. You are defeated by your own self when you apply everything you own to make them realize what you've been through but still passed on alone with ultimate melancholy.

What happens next? You lie down and see them standing everywhere in your life and you know that you stand nowhere in their life.. and then you begin losing your breaths when the individual you know becomes the person you used to know. You are being killed when you have to live with the invisible wounds-

I tell you, bullets don't kill you, it's the 6:00 am confessions.

Wednesday, 20 August 2014

Moving on with life...

They asked how long is forever? And the answer came; until they don’t find a replacement. Uh! People leave somehow. They HAVE to. Some get sick of you, and others just don't feel like you're worth it anymore. It does not matter if you’re unable to decide either those or you're the ‘too-much –to-handle’ material.
Honestly, it’s not only you, nobody likes feeling like an annoyance, a burden, or worse, an obligation that people have to be responsible for. It hurts and it really sucks having to scream out the things you've been keeping in yourself and yet you just can’t take them out. The hollowness in your heart, the tangled mess in your mind, the aching of your soul, the four am loneliness and what not, there is too much to explain but you can’t.

Therefore, when you’ve found your mind always been in a precarious state, when you start admitting the fact that nobody is strong enough to hold you for so long, when the feeling of melancholy takes over you, this is about the time when you’ve to put everything aside and take a deep breath to admit the harsh realities. You seriously have to stop hoping for anything because it's plain stupid as it will be going to disappoint you eventually. The fear of hiding in your "cozy" shell and as the phrase goes "build walls around you" convince you to find yourself and that lost trust once again. You’ve to start living before you go to a stage where you are beyond redemption. You’ve to get in friends with the creature inside you who’s tired of deceiving, lies and the inside battles. You’ve to make your friend sleep. You just have to!

Tuesday, 19 August 2014

Let's Sleep Tonight





Heartbreaks can make you write a poem;

Come let us go

come let’s go beyond all these things tonight
Nobody hears
Nobody cares
Oh dear! Nobody hears all these broken dreams in your eyes
nobody cares to see them
Priorities matter;
Replacements occur;
Dreams get shattered.
Come let’s go beyond these broken dreams tonight
Come let’s go beyond these thoughts
Nobody knows the void
Nobody knows the hollowness 
Come let’s forget it tonight
Come let’s erase these scars
Come, my dear, let’s remove all these spots
So what if the shadow is dark?
Don’t get afraid of your scars.
Come let’s hug the shadow tonight
Come let’s go beyond the dreams tonight
 let us sleep tonight.
let us sleep tonight.